Living As If – It’s Simpler Than You Think

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“Living as if” has been one of those LOA concepts that was always unclear to me.

If you live as if you’re a millionaire, does that mean you’re supposed to go on a shopping spree with your credit cards? Then you sit back and know that the money to pay your bill will come in before your balance becomes past due? If you live as if you already have the relationship you desire, does that mean you can never flirt with anyone else? That you should never bask in the attention of another suitor?

I’ve come to understand this concept in a new way this year, and I want to share my take on it. As a result of living this way, life has become more relaxed. Negative thoughts aren’t as big of a deal as they used to be. And it works!

Living as if isn’t about doing anything that is outside your comfort zone to prove that you are in alignment with your desire. Let’s throw out the idea that we ever have to do anything to prove to the universe that we’re in alignment or deserving.

Alignment is about your ability to feel good and at peace. If you care about how you feel and make your peace a priority, then alignment will come more naturally to you. As far as deserving goes – abundance, love, joy, and peace are our birthright. While some of us may not have come into this life choosing those things, no one person is any more or less deserving of them than another.

In the example of attracting financial abundance, I would try thinking more from the perspective of someone who has been a millionaire for quite some time. If I had been a millionaire for years, and this was my life now, I wouldn’t go on big spending binges or shopping sprees often. Yes, I know that might sound strange. For some of you, maybe retail therapy is your love language to yourself, but it is not mine. Even if it is your language, making a subtle shift first is all it takes to move into this mindset of abundance and create that reality for yourself.

Instead, I would be mindful of the small, day-to-day thoughts I have about money. I would shift my thoughts toward the perspective of having been a millionaire for several years. In that reality, I wouldn’t feel guilty about spending a little extra for a healthy meal that I don’t have to cook myself. I wouldn’t feel concerned about taking money out of my savings account for home repairs or a down payment on a new car. These are all necessary things that add quality to my life.

When a company party came up, and the boss asked everyone to contribute $15 for a small gift, I wouldn’t grumble about that. I wouldn’t feel burdened by it. What’s $15 to a millionaire?

You don’t need to go out of your way or make big purchases that will stress you out later. If you could simply attach less worry to these things that come up in your day-to-day, that would make a huge difference. It’s true that money can’t buy love, but it can eliminate a whole lot of sleepless nights and headaches. Therefore, abundance feels like peace. What other words come to mind when you think of a life where you can always provide for yourself (and have fun, too)?

They key is making small, simple shifts that feel good. It’s not about the dollar amounts you spend or making some grand gesture to prove you’re a different person. Lining up with your more desired version of you is about what you’re thinking in each moment. It’s not only about what you’re doing, but the energy behind those actions. It is better not to take actions that will draw your attention to when and how the windfall is going to come. That puts you in a state of noticing and reaffirming that it’s not here yet, which only attracts more of that reality.

Ask yourself some questions about how you’re spending your day presently. What would be different about that if you were already living your desired reality? “For starters, I wouldn’t go to work!” you might say. Yes, that’s a very good point. You can still go to work without attaching so much importance to the negativity you feel about it. Think about what would make your job more bearable. It is okay if you can’t quite imagine yourself at your dream job or never having to work. Experiencing negative feelings and unwanted manifestations doesn’t have to be a big deal. It is only the importance you attach to them that creates “blocks.”

If you had the relationship you desire, would you be checking your phone throughout the day? Would you scroll through Facebook for hours? This is a nervous habit that many people have, this desire to “check up” on things. When the present reality is far from your desired one, it is better to ignore it as much as possible. Scrolling through your phone to check for signs of your manifestation – or checking anything external for confirmation – is not the best idea. And it’s not living as if.

Should you enjoy the attentions of others or date other people if there is a specific relationship you want to manifest? On the one hand, I feel it is a good idea because it can boost your self-esteem. On the other hand, it may only make you more aware that the person you truly love is absent. These are potentials that you must weigh for yourself. There are no universal rules in manifesting, and there are no limits. It all comes down to your beliefs and feelings. Your truths.

As always, I believe in you. I know you have the ability to create a life you love with everything you desire and more.

Have a great week!

Noticing Your “Default” Thoughts & Shifting to Better States

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Have you ever stopped to notice your “default” thought set toward something? These are thoughts you think when you’re not going about your life as consciously as you usually do, and they come up when your defenses are down. You may not even realize you’re vulnerable. It’s like being on auto-pilot.

No matter how deep you are into your spiritual journey, you can carry patterns of thoughts that your subconscious has soaked up from childhood and memories from your past. You carry traumas from the ways your heart has been broken before.

I recently moved into a home. Much of my default thought set was: “This is hard.” Another default thought: “This is lonely. I’m alone.” I have since realized that I inherited a lot of this from my mother. I saw her go through depression and loneliness, meanwhile finding the upkeep on her home impossible.

I’ve always rented because I enjoyed knowing that if something broke, the repair would be someone else’s responsibility. The idea of being solely responsible for an entire building full of switches, knobs, wires, and things I have no name for terrified me.

In my “default” mode, it also emphasized the idea that I have no man in my life. Now, I’ve put furniture together, done minor repairs/maintenance, and used tools, so I know I don’t need to rely on a man to do everything for me. But I’m talking about the sad thoughts that pop up and defy your rationality, the ones that nip at your more tender, heartbroken pieces when your defenses are down and no one is there to hug you.

On only Day 5 of being a homeowner, I was having a meltdown on my couch. Between learning I had to hire a trash company, that the city wouldn’t just magically pick up, and various other problems that seem much smaller in hindsight, life felt difficult. Impossible, even. I am sure much of this strong emotion had to do with not having a solid eating and sleeping schedule over the past week from being so busy.

There was a child’s playset in the backyard that came with the home. I think it was placed there by one of the owners before the one that sold it to me. There was no telling how long it had been there, unused. I have no children, and it was a weight on my brain every time I looked out of the window into my backyard. “How am I ever going to get rid of that?”

I had no way of knowing how to take it apart, no vehicle big enough to transport it. The only thing I could think of was, “I’m going to have to hire a junk company to come get it.”

That innocent little swingset and jungle gym seemed to mock me in my darker moments. “You own a home, but you don’t have a family. How sad!” More default thoughts that came to nip at me when I was feeling down and vulnerable.

After I accidentally shut off my a/c while trying to find my furnace filter and freaked out because I was afraid I had broken it, I called a friend. I called her and let out my verbal diarrhea about the playset, the a/c, the trash, everything. I told her I had been crying pretty much non-stop the entire day. She soothed me by telling me that she had done the same thing after buying her house, and she suggested Facebook Marketplace for the playset. She said, “List it for free. Someone will be willing to come take it apart and transport it.”

The idea that this was a nice swingset and outdoor area for children hadn’t occurred to me so much when I was thinking about my problem. I was only thinking about the “get rid of it because it is taunting you” part, not the “someone will want this and I can do something nice for them” part.

I desperately needed to buy groceries. (I’d eaten watermelon and animal crackers for dinner the night before.) I logged into Facebook and posted pictures of the playset on Marketplace, then forgot about it and went to get food.

After I was done shopping about an hour later, I had three messages already, asking me if the set was still available. I replied to the first person who had messaged, and she wanted to come look at it right away. Less than 24 hours later, her son had loaded it into his truck and it was going to her grandchildren. I felt like I had done something good, and it had been so easy for me. Literally all I did was give permission for them to go into my backyard, dismantle the set and load it into their car.

It had taken less than a day to solve that “problem.”

Now I have a whole backyard, free and clear, ready for whatever I want to do with it, and that family has a new way for their children to play and have fun!

But it wouldn’t have been that easy if I wasn’t open to a shift in perspective. If I was absolutely unmoved in how I saw that situation, then the outcome of hiring a junk company to come haul it off would have come true. Thank goodness, I realized it could be easy.

It was a good thing that I broke down enough to call a friend. Sometimes we need to let others be witnesses to our not-so-fine moments. They can give us perspectives that we alone cannot access.

I know this is hard – I have a huge block when it comes to asking for help. But I’ve always found that the Universe will push you to ask for help when you’re truly ready for it. And it might be in the form of a mental breakdown brought on by a diet of watermelon and animal crackers.

Whatever it is, trust it! Default thoughts can be hard to break through. They can be statements and images that play in the background of your brain. My mother once wrote to me about how her refrigerator and DVD player had broken in the same week. It happened during a week that she was particularly sad about something in her life. She said, “These things have a way of happening when you feel least capable of dealing with them.” That statement has always stuck with me, and I know I made it a part of my truth for a time. I always thought of her, had that image of her lonely in her house, sad, unable to tend to things that needed attention. Unable to spend money to fix them.

It’s no one’s “fault,” certainly no wrong-doing on my mother’s part as she was just living her life as she knew how to live it. For me, it was just a trauma that seeped into my heart. It was a way of struggling that I had learned as the only way, until I asked for help.

Now it’s on the way out, and I know I will be all right. I feel lucky to have this house, and this house is lucky to have me.

What are some of your default thoughts? How do they play into your deepest fears? I hope I have helped you to notice them and start shifting them. 🖤

Every Day (More Thoughts on Faith)

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Since I wrote a post about faith earlier in the week, I’ve had a few more thoughts about this subject come through and wanted to share them. I know they will reach whoever it is that needs them right now. I have faith in that!

I don’t mean faith in a religious sense, but if that is what appeals to you and the spin you want to put on this, by all means. I mean faith in a sense that you believe life has a purpose and that purpose is something better than you expected. I also mean faith in a happy love story with your twin flame, the law of attraction working positively for you, or whatever it is that makes you feel better when you think of it. Whatever it is that encourages you and keeps you going in your darkest, loneliest moments. Whatever that is for you, that’s what I’m talking about.

Every day, we are given a reason why we shouldn’t have faith. A reason why any doubt we may feel is valid. A sense that what we want will never work out.

Every day, we are introduced to a person who doesn’t believe as we do, or who disrespects our beliefs in some way, whether that is by mocking us or outright telling us all the reasons we’re wrong or crazy to have faith. Some might even say we’re “living in denial.” Some might not say anything, but you can feel it in their energy.

Every day, most of us log in to social media and see a barrage of negativity in the form of news articles meant to produce mass fear and people who want to add fear on top of fear or hurt others to the degree that they’ve been hurt.

Every day, we have to choose whether we will keep faith or go back into the shadows of doubt, fear, and confusion. Whether we will stay the course that feels true to our hearts, even when all physical evidence seems to suggest we’re “living in denial,” or whether we will take another path that makes us feel uneasy, like we’re sinking, or like something is missing. Whether we will continue on in a way that leaves room for the most wonderful and unexpected miracles, or put our heads down and block out all possibilities of wonder, peace, and excitement.

Am I physically together and in a relationship with my twin flame? No. Am I working at the job of my dreams? No. Am I making money with my writing? No (okay, this is actually a tiny lie… I am making some).

Do I believe there is a reason for all these “failures” and that they are setting me up for a future beyond my wildest dreams? You bet! As a bonus, they have been strengthening my faith and ability to consciously use the LOA. When you want to build your muscles, at first, maybe you feel like you’re going to die, or you feel like a joke when you can’t hold up a two-pound weight. It’s when you work through that pain and embarrassment and refuse to give up that you get anywhere! If you threw down the dumbbells as easily as you throw down your faith, or you curled up in despair every time someone teased you, nothing would change.

At first, my faith was more a soft entertainment of certain ideas. It was a nice, gentle thought to fall asleep to. Some days, that’s the most it can be, especially if my mood has dipped.

If you go looking for it, you’ll find all kinds of material and “proof” that speaks against law of attraction, twin flames, spirituality in general. If you want to add fuel to the fire of your doubts, you can always find it. You can always choose that.

But you can also choose to give sunlight and water to what brings you peace, what feels like a healing balm on your weary soul. You can tune in to energies that uplift you or soothe you.

Life is about what you choose. If you want to choose a life drastically different from the one you’ve lived in the past, it’s probably going to require a bit of faith. Or a lot of faith. It’s going to require you to open yourself to the possibility of a beautiful present and future – not just say you’re open and bitterly wonder why the new isn’t here yet, but really be open while in a state of peace and curiosity. Remain open in the face of doubt, fear, naysayers, and events that seem negative.

Faith is a choice. If our beliefs in the goodness/purpose of our lives as humans were proven by science, faith wouldn’t be necessary.

Every day, there will always be some new reason why we “shouldn’t” have faith. A new fear-mongering article. Another person talking about how their twin flame is a dirtbag. Another way you feel inadequate and unworthy of what you desire.

It’s easy to give these things a lot of air time in your brain and reaffirm them all the time. It’s not easy (at least, not at first) to have faith in something better. It’s not easy to let go of your fear.

I spent the first twenty-three years of my life in misery and hopelessness. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. If faith had been easy for me, I wouldn’t be writing this now. But I am writing to show it can be done. You can choose to believe that life is good, or that it’s about love, or miracles, or composing a masterpiece, or literally whatever you want. The only reason it doesn’t seem to be about that yet is because you aren’t choosing it, or you aren’t unwavering in your choice. And I’m sure you have plenty of reasons why. I’m acknowledging it’s easy to get off track. I’m admitting that faith isn’t the easiest path for most of you reading this.

The more you practice it, the easier it will become.

I see you out there, the light flickering unsteadily in your heart while you teeter on the edge of despair and wonder if you should just go back there. It’s familiar territory, you reason. There is more proof that it is right, you say. This is more acceptable to people and less weird, you think.

I have never seen one scientifically proven way to live life for guaranteed results in every category, so I am going out on a limb and choosing what feels best to me. Why? Because it helps me sleep at night. Because it gets me up in the morning. Because in the first twenty-three years of my life, I never knew peace like this. Because I have met a lot of gifted and kind people through my faith, and they have lit the path for me when it got dark. Because my relationships have improved. Because I’ve started to bring in more income. Because my writing has become stronger and more genuine than ever before. I could go on…

It’s all because I realized that every day, I choose, and I became conscious of what I am choosing.

I also read success stories of people who are happily with their twin flame and working with the LOA to make all their other dreams come true.

I reach out to people who inspire me.

I give myself space to feel down and know I will come back up when I’m ready.

I think about my faith and feel grateful for it. I feel grateful for the people who encourage me when I’m low on my faith.

Every day.

Dealing With Disagreement as a Conscious Manifestor

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The Law of Attraction itself is straightforward – what you think, believe, and feel predominantly is what you get. What is not so straightforward is living a conscious manifesting lifestyle while those close to you don’t believe, make fun of it, or disapprove.

Last week, I watched the second night of the DNC’s debates that featured Marianne Williamson. She concluded her appearance by saying that President Trump has harnessed fear for political purposes, and now she intends to harness love with her campaign. Even though I very much admire her and agree with her on several issues, I cringed a little as she said it – not because it isn’t true or I disliked it, but because I was imagining the jeers from people in response to her words. I went to bed, and in the morning, Twitter was flooded with memes and articles poking fun at that soundbite. But Marianne Williamson, unlike me, seemed to draw strength from the jokes and could laugh along with everyone. We would all do well to live by her example of taking our jobs, but not ourselves, seriously.

The response above got me thinking about the spiritual closet and how tempting it is to get in there, lock the door, and throw away the key. I have come running out of the closet, and I have poked a few toes gradually out of the closet, but I always have a way of cramming myself back in there the moment I feel like someone disagrees with me or thinks my spirituality is funny or weird. Sometimes I hesitate to write these articles, because I first imagine the response of those who won’t agree, instead of the ones it can help. I have even experienced family thinking I am in a cult after I began writing and sharing articles like these on my social media.

We all struggle with this. We focus on the negative rather than on our achievements. Someone telling me they appreciate me is forgotten the instant someone criticizes me. A nice article about how there are plastic-eating mushrooms in the world is forgotten when I see a photo of plastic waste in the ocean. This is how our minds have been trained, and it can be very difficult to “undo” this. That’s why being consistent and persistent as a conscious creator in the face of perceived failure and others’ disapproval is so very important.

When you live a manifesting lifestyle and try to share with your loved ones about your signs and synchs, or how you’ve changed your thinking, you might be met with resistance. Even if you don’t share, it’s easy to pick up on vibes and know whether someone would be open to LOA or think it’s just a bunch of fairy dust nonsense. I have noticed that people often turn to humor or sarcasm when they don’t know how to respond to one’s beliefs or spirituality. I feel that there is no true malicious intent behind this response, but it’s more because the person is experiencing discomfort with the ideas.

It’s important to understand that while people may disagree or think you’re partaking in silly nonsense that will never amount to anything, their being in disagreement does not affect your ability to attract good into your life. You could be best friends with someone, and their beliefs wouldn’t always be your beliefs. Even if they try to make you feel bad about that or give you evidence of why they’re right, disagreeing is a natural part of being a human on a path specific to you among other humans on other paths specific to them.

As I saw from the Marianne Williamson example, it takes great strength to continue along with your desired path when it seems like a lot of people, or those who are most important to you, do not agree with it or think it’s funny. Sometimes we can make the choice not to speak to anyone about our biggest dreams and thus avoid responses that don’t feel so great, but sometimes, we must be brave enough to speak or write about them so that others who think similarly can benefit from the light we bring to the world.

Disagreement does not equal a lack of love and respect for another person. It simply means that the way you’re living your life, the choices you’re making, differ from someone else’s way. And that is not inherently bad or wrong. If someone else pokes fun at your spirituality or says something negative about it – or thinks you’re in a cult – that’s not your problem. It’s not theirs, either. It’s actually not a problem at all. Remember that saying, “What someone else thinks of you is none of your business”? It’s popular because it’s true. Everything someone says or what they feel is neutral to us, until we give it meaning.

Disagreeing is a natural part of being a human on a path specific to you among other humans on other paths specific to them.

I was miserable when I realized people disapproved of my spirituality, because I chose to take that disapproval to heart. I made it mean that something was wrong with me, that I wasn’t loved. But neither of these statements hold any truth.

If your conscious approach to the law of attraction is working for you, or if you’re yet to see results but feeling better as a result of choosing positive thoughts, that’s all that matters. Maybe it doesn’t work for your Uncle Joe. You don’t have control over Uncle Joe’s life, but you have control over yours. Next time Uncle Joe makes fun of you or asks with a sneer “how those witchcraft books are working for you,” I hope you’ll smile and tell him they’re great.

Next time you feel tempted to take someone’s opinion of you or your life and make it into a story, or allow it to define you in any way, I hope you will remember this. I hope you will continue reading your law of attraction books and twin flame blogs and never cease to choose what makes you feel the tiniest bit better, even if someone else had something mean to say about it. I hope you will continue loving people that you “shouldn’t” love. I hope you will continue writing about topics that may make certain people uncomfortable, because your work will provide relief to countless others.

I hope you will continue to create good things for yourself because you have the power to do so, and that power cannot be taken away by anyone else.